As many of you know, a few months ago, I quit my full time, ministry job to be home with my kids. While this has been a great decision for many, many reasons, this week, I have been struggling a bit, and the question on my mind is “Who am I now?”
Isn’t it true that we tend to find our worth in what we do, in our titles? My job was something I loved, and was good at. I felt valuable being in charge of a ministry, with the daily opportunity to hang out with, cry with, laugh with, teach, mentor, and pray with people of all ages. When I look into someone’s eyes and see them finally understand who God is and how much He loves them, my heart soars and I feel my purpose.
This week, I am having a hard time figuring out if I am enough at home. You could say I feel a bit lost. However, I am determined to remember my value and my worth do not lie in what I do, or my title. I know some of you are experiencing feelings like this of your own, for a variety of reasons. We must never forget, we are valuable because God thought about us, God designed us, and He made us in His image. Our worth lies in the simple fact that the God of this universe thought we were important enough to create!
You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
Thank you so much for reading today. If you are struggling with your self worth, I would love to pray with you. Please send me an email or post a comment. Know this, you are valued and loved, just as you are. Run to Jesus and let Him fill your heart.
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